Don't listen to me whine

I sense a pattern from these recent insomnia, and they are getting disturbingly more frequent.

=== Beginning of System Memory Dump 256KB ===

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Ohg V unir gb or fgebat, orpnhfr V cebzvfrq V jvyy ybir zlfrys orsber nalbar ybir zr.

Please remember all these stuff is especially corny for a slightly conservative Asian guy.
I hope this herbal sleeping pill has finally taken effect.
Good night.

=== End of System Memory Dump ===

Lost and found

Listening to: Don Mclean - Vincent

I'm feeling sad, perhaps it's because I'm tired; but I don't need a reason for the emotion.
I need everything and nothing, perhaps nothing will fill the void.

Even though this should be a negative feeling,
I'm savoring it like a cup of black coffee.

Don't know what to do...

satisfaction of nothing

I'm still surprised at how well I've done the exam my mind is still a bit hazy, and that sense of imminent doom still lingers. Maybe it's just me being tired.

Please, just give me one day to have an exucse not to think about anything, then hopefully, I can perform again.

Milkshake

I got this blog not knowing what to do with it, because MSN Space seemed enough for my rambling need. It can not be a "truth blog" because I'm already as honest as I can be in the previous. It can not be for making new friends with my thoughts, because I doubt I will ever construct anything intelligent or interesting to capture anyone's interest except mine.

So, what should I do?

My last few posts gave me an idea. This blog shall be the opposite of my msn space, an emotion diary - brief and trivial, an imprint of what I felt, without much thought over it to organise or rationalise how I feel.

Today I felt lost and out of control, but a good thing happened when it was 3 days of shitiness.
I didn't ruin everything.

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Funny I don't know what to write when too many things happened at the same time. Busy, but not exactly the way I wanted it. Perhaps it is best to lay down those presumptions. Anyway, I'm going to An-chi's now, because we are having another dumpling get together.

PS:
Mid-Autumn Festival (aka Moon Festival aka Autumn Equinox) is on 6th of Oct, a good excuse for beer and bbq